sometimes, people tell mp she lives a charmed life. given the recent past, it makes sense that she occassionally looks at these people like they must be telling her she's the way to tell one wine glass from another. maybe she's charmed in the sense that people shouldn't drink from her, or they will sleep for 100 years. (uh, mp wants me to insert a note to the driver, missa missa chickapea, shorty, and all future potentials: "that is so not true.") anyway...
tuesday morning, mp met llama girl at a local starbucks so that she could pass along "the box." the box is basically a collection of c&r books, theory, study guides, recordings, class notes, etc, that have been passed down from grad class to grad class. mp no longer needed it, but the llama did, so it was time for the box to leave the happy honda-condo it had been calling home. (tragic, really, since it had begun picking out curtains with a tube of neutrogena hand cream in the cargo area. i'm glad for them; it took a lot to get over the handcream's moment of indescretion with the leather jacket.) when the llama saw mp, she exclaimed, "you look great! it's not just the weight-- you just look really fantastic!"
mp, of course, thanked her automatically. then she realized that the compliment was totally sincere. after all, the llama had seen mp just a couple of months before.... she realized that the complete happiness she felt inside was now visible everywhere. mp bounced into a job she loves more than she ever thought possible, has settled into a rythmn with her body, and finally acknowledges the power of the panty-dropping smile.
and it's good. it's really, really fucking good.
every day is filled with joy, contentment, new adventure, passion, gratitude, and love. she wakes up at 5am with a smile on her face, because she can't wait for the day to start. she irons her clothes after dealing with the delicious agony of choosing an outfit-- and she is happy to do it. (not to mention, she can steam-press like nobody's business these days.) She can actually work her espresso machine, but that doesn't take away the pleasure of walking to starbucks during work hours.
mp is happy, fulfilled, and living every day....
maybe that's what being charmed really means.
